Hey, lovely readers! It's been a while since we've caught up, and it's time for an update on what's happening in my corner of the world.
Life has a funny way of keeping us on our toes. So much can change in what feels like the blink of an eye, and yet, amidst all the chaos and uncertainty, there's always a silver lining.
So many changes and we're just barely scratching 2024!
In life, there are moments when we make decisions that challenge societal norms, and it crackles on our being. For me, that pivotal decision was choosing to embrace single parenthood. While society often casts a shadow of stigma upon single parents, I understood the profound realization that choosing myself and my child was the most empowering decision I could have ever made.
While it's still too early to tell, the path of single parenthood is filled with misconceptions and judgments. It's a journey that demands resilience, courage, and an unwavering belief in oneself. Initially, the weight of societal expectations bore down heavily on me. There were whispers of pity and raised eyebrows as if my status as a single parent somehow diminished my worth.
"Ikaw sumira ng pamilya mo."
"Wala na magmamahal sa'yo."
"Ayaw ng mga tao sa single mom/dad."
"Dapat tiniis mo na lang."
But amid this external noise, I discovered an inner strength I never knew I had.
Becoming a single parent was not a decision born out of convenience or circumstance; it was a conscious choice to prioritize my well-being and my child. It meant stepping into the role of mother and father, provider and nurturer, with dedication and love. It meant facing challenges head-on, from financial struggles to the emotional rollercoaster of parenthood, with determination to create a better future.
In the face of all the noise, I found hope. I discovered a sense of resilience within myself. Every obstacle became an opportunity for growth, and every setback was a chance to rise stronger than before. Through it all, I held onto the belief that my decision to choose myself was not just an act of self-preservation but empowerment.
But the most profound realization on this journey has been the importance of community and support. Surrounding myself with individuals who uplift and inspire me has been instrumental in navigating the ups and downs of my life. Whether it's friends who lend a listening ear or family members who offer a helping hand, I am reminded repeatedly that I am not alone.
Because second chances aren't always the answer.
In relationships, we often believe in giving second chances. But there comes a point when we've tried everything, and the thought of giving another chance feels exhausting.
Giving one more chance can feel futile when communication breaks down, and trust fades. We have a choice: hold onto what's left or move forward.
It's a tough decision that forces us to reflect on our worth. Sometimes, we're scared to be alone or afraid of change. But we must realize that our well-being matters, too. Resisting second chances isn't a sign of weakness. It's about respecting ourselves and knowing when enough is enough. We deserve better than repeating the same old cycle.
So, even though second chances may seem tempting, sometimes the bravest thing we can do is to let go and move on. It's about freeing ourselves from the past, embracing our flaws and strengths, and facing life head-on.
Because when we accept our vulnerabilities, we are more open to receiving happiness.
I've kept my emotions close to my chest for the longest time. Showing vulnerability felt like an admission of weakness, something to be avoided at all costs. Crying in front of others is a taboo. But as life has unfolded, I've come to understand that true strength lies in acknowledging our vulnerabilities and reaching out for support when needed.
Lately, I've been challenging myself to break out of this shell, to open up and share my innermost thoughts and feelings with those I trust. It hasn't been easy, but I've found that each time I allow myself to be vulnerable, I feel relief. A weight has been lifted, and I can breathe a little easier.
And safe to say, I'm grateful for the incredible support I've received from my family, friends, and colleagues. Their willingness to listen and empathize has been nothing short of amazing. Knowing that I have a support system to lean on has given me the courage to continue opening up, even when it feels scary.
Also, amidst this uncertainty, a beacon of warmth and understanding emerged—someone who heard my cries, and I didn't even bother distancing to in my life.
His ability to listen without judgment and offer comfort has been nothing short of a gift. Their warmth and gentle nature have drawn me closer, creating a safe space to express myself freely without fear of reprisal.
Our conversations challenged my preconceived notions, encouraged me to see the world through a different lens, and inspired me to embrace change and growth.
I've discovered a sense of comfort and acceptance I never thought possible. They've shown me that vulnerability is not a sign of weakness but a testament to our own depth. And for that, I am endlessly grateful.
As I continue on this journey of personal growth and self-discovery, I find solace in knowing that I have someone like this in my life—they remind us that even in our darkest moments, light and hope are to be found in the warmth of human connection.
And oh, before I forgot:
Quick updates on the things I set out to accomplish this year before turning 30:
- Got my UMID ID finally! Didn't need to file any lost ID report in any SSS office as I was pre-offered the free upgrade to UB card via the online portal.
- Determined to take driving lessons. I'm enrolling myself in a course this Q2 so before I turn 30, I'm a licensed driver.
- I'm at 10/30 books read. When I started opening up myself to my colleagues, I found book readers like myself and we swap books to read! It's fun as I get to read titles that I usually don't gravitate towards to and it's been an engaging experience to read them all.
- Lost 4kgs and counting. Plus, adopted and actually stuck with the healthy habits I set for myself! There were times I wavered but it's still 70% healthy with a 30% allowance for fun and socialization.
- Reconnected with my friends and met new amazing people! I actually reached Mythic in Mobile Legends by playing with strangers online and it sort of gave me an overview of what the general gaming population is like.
- Decluttering and maintaining a capsule wardrobe. One of things I did before the New Year was throw away all the things I don't use anymore and can't donate to other people. In terms of clothing, I managed to embrace a more comfortable style which I don't feel as insecure as before. It's empowering and gives me a bit of ego boost when people say I dress better lately compared before.
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